5:06 PM
Monday, May 04, 2009
Sometimes you ask yourself if you will see yourself doing something that you love 10 years down the road.
Sometimes you ask yourself if you even have a stand in the whole picture.
Sometimes you wonder, if putting in effort is all worth it if you know that it is impossible to achieve.
There are somethings in life that once you hit a certain time of your life, it's really hard for you to go back to square 1 and try, where as people are already way in front of you.
It's like chasing after a train that you've missed and the rest of the passengers are already on board the train. How can you win the race? How can you even catch up with the train? By running damn fast, do you think it's really possible?
Yes it is, some might say, maybe because you're the passengers on the train, thats why you feel that it's possible. Try to be the one running after the train.
It's possible, but how long can your stamina last? How long can you endure? Do you really think one can run faster then a train?
It's unfair for runners to start at different point of the track, but both of your ending point is the same. But yea, like what people always say, life is never fair.
So should i even waste my time trying and fighting when i know that something is impossible?
It's not that i never try, but it's sometimes just too late.
Sometimes it's even easier to get the train to chase after people, it's way way way faster! right?
I want to remember this something that i love as a beautiful thing, as a happy thing, as an enjoyable issue. Not the waste of energy, efforts, and pain that is being compared to running together with a train.
It's disheartening, and it's demoralizing.
Well, it's always better to stay in something that you are good at than at something you are way below, isn't it? Maybe one day i will find something that I am confident in and that I will definitely excel in. I have to and I will.
Sometimes one should just learn to move on. :)
