11:57 AM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
I am currently happy with my current life and I don't want to change it. Lots of people asked why is my msn nick full of sadness. I always avoided this question, but in reality, yes, there are really too many regrets in my life and I don't want all of these to become the shadows of my life :-)
To forget the past is to repeat mistakes; to avoid facing the future is to live without a bearing; but to ignore the present is to float away like a drift-wood. Therefore we must always learn from the past, face the future and live in the present. ^^
Someone spoke to me before - "the world does not care much about how handsome or pretty you are but it is the contribution to society, to the nation, to your organisation, to your family members and to the world at large that counts. Just try to help and make this world alive with happiness, harmony and with new ideas fill the world with new inventions and new things" - and this, I agreed completely =D
Every morning, during my 35mins train trip to work, I see people from different walks of life - from people who gave up seats to pregnant woman and old folks, couples who lie on each other as if they have no backbone, people who push their way into the train, to people who reserved seats for others even though there are so many people.
Anyways, it has been the first time in my life to realise that good results does not mean anything. So what if my GPA is considered to be high by many, so what if I scored more As and distinctions than others, so what if I get the highest marks in certain modules? Haha~ yah, it doesn’t mean anything at all.
I felt that I had disappointed a lot of people - from my friends, ex collegues, family and all who are confident that I will definitely been accepted into NTU. Only till I received the letter then I realised the disappointment and amount of stress I faced. Yep, feeling really sorry to disappoint them. I’ve tried my best to score in Poly, and things are no longer within my control anymore.
But nevertheless, rest assured I will try to apply again next year, or maybe try applying for AMC?. I will not leave it at there - a mere diploma holder.
I realized that I had changed, getting more and more distant from them, avoiding gatherings with them that I used to enjoy. I dont't know what had cause the change in me, but as I said in my previous post, people do change. The society is full of dark images, though there may be bright ones sometimes, and I would like to hope for the latter! =)
Sometimes one would really wonder if everything that you do is worth it.
Was it even necessary?
Are you being appreciated?
What's the difference?
What if tomorrow never comes?
